Monday, April 12, 2010

Good news, bad news, gender reveal.

Copy/Pasted from an email to Family and Friends:

Merikalyn had her check up today and there is no real "new" news. Again, all they know is that it is an inflammatory mass- other than that, they don't really know anything! She is scheduled for another MRI in July, and will have an angiogram at some point in the new future as well. She is doing wonderfully- definitely back to herself (but better!).

Saturday we had an ultrasound to check out the little baby and find out the gender. We were excited to learn that we're having a GIRL! :) I noticed the tech (who specializes in prenatal ultrasound) was really focusing on the heart for longer than normal. I even mentioned it to my mom and my sister-in-law. Right after the U/S, as we were walking out, I had a question for the tech, so one of the other women went to ask her and said, "She was on the phone with your midwife.... {blah blah blah}." I thought it was strange that she was calling the midwife SO SOON after the U/S and I again wondered if something was wrong. But, I shrugged it off and just celebrated the news of "GIRL GIRL GIRL!". :)

This evening, my midwife called. We had a busy day, and we were all snoozing, so I called her back when I woke up. She told me there was something wrong with the baby, and I immediately said, "It's the heart, right?"

She said the baby only has three chambers instead of four. Most people want to know what this means. Does it mean our baby won't make it? (As many of you know, we had 4 miscarriages before we conceived this little sweetheart.. so we definitely already feel like she's our miracle baby!)

Well, mainly, this means that- most likely, a homebirth is out of the question. Right now, the baby is at the weight and size she should be at, and her heart beat is at the pace it should be, despite having only three chambers. (Of course, things change as the baby gets bigger, more developed... and once the baby is born, she won't be able to depend on my body for support.)

This will likely mean giving birth at a hospital downtown (I am being referred to a doctor in the Houston Medical center) so that the baby can be wisked off to Texas Children's after she is born.

So far, we've had a very healthy pregnancy.. and things have been wonderful, and we pray that continues to be.

I know people have stories about how it appeared to be such-n-such and wasn't, or whatever, but- honestly, we don't want to hear those stories. First of all, we just want to call it what it is. If we find out something has changed, and her heart is whole and complete, we will know it's the grace and miracle of God, and not some fluke.

We KNOW God has the ability to heal and complete her heart- but He may not choose to do so. It seems both of our little girls (Merikalyn and this little baby) like to be vessels for God's biggest miracles. :) We are all certainly praying for one.

We have been through so much lately (big stuff, little stuff) and it's overwhelming... but it's so nice to know we have "peace that passes understanding". I cannot imagine going through any of those without a hope beyond ourselves.


Renita said...

Wow, Mandy! We will be praying for the best along with you all! As we have just observed with Merika, doctors can do wonderful things these days. Big Hugs to you all!

Waterdreamer said...

I'm sorry you are having so much piled on your plate. I'll pray for you and your whole family. Best of luck

Pam said...

What a positive reaction to the heaviness of life. Thank you. I sometimes can't even muster positive for "somewhat hard". Knowing ahead is an adjustment for now, but will be a blessing for later. You will be able to plan and take steps because God revealed something He wanted you to know. It is possible to praise God in and throughout the storms. Thanks for doing that as much as you have it in you to do.

Neisha said...

love your positive thinking. hope all turns out well for you and your family

tanis said...

wow, I am so sorry to head about all that is going on in your life at the moment.

Your positive attitude is very inspiring... I am thinking about each and every one of you in your family.

Cilla said...

What faith.
Thinking of you all.
Praying that God continues to strengthen you x

Jeanette said...

Your faith is amazing! I pray for your health and the baby's. Only God knows his plans for sure.

Miranda said...

I love your positive attitude. You actually make me feel more at peace with my own daughters struggles.

I will keep your girls in my prayers.

Whitney said...

You don't know me and I don't know you, but I found your blog through several links.

Anyway, I just wanted to say "hang in there." I'm a mom of one two-year-old who was born with a congential defect as well. It wasn't anything about the heart, but had to do with cleft lip and palate. It required a lot of work and two surgeries.

Add to that mix two layoffs, two moves, and me recently being diagnosed with a cancerous brain tumor.

Life is HARD sometimes, but I've been so happy too. It's such a mixture. Your daughter is lovely - I'm so glad hers wasn't malignant.

Anyway, thanks for sharing.

EmilyBill said...

I have read your blog on and off for a while and I have to say that I have a lot to learn from you. There is so much going on your life right now, but you continue to have faith and hope. I struggle with infertility and I often have a hard time coping with it. You are amazing and I know that God will do great things for your and your family!

Anonymous said...

It's great!!..........................................

jenn said...

I have read you off and on her and at OD but never commented. My husband was born with a severe congenital heart defect in 1971 (date is important bc they have come a LONG way). Today, they do the surgery to correct his defect within hours of birth, but then he had to wait 16 months. No one expected him to survive the heart lung machine (he was the smallest ever to survive at that time). He had his surgery in Houston. You cannot be at a better hospital or have better drs. As his mother handed him over for the surgery, she remembers the drs telling her he would not survive but heard God's voice echoing louder. I pray that you will also hear his voice during this time. feel free to ask me questions (my husband had-Total Anomalous Pulmonary Venous Return (TAPVR). My husband had a follow up surgery in 2003 (this time in OH at the Cleveland Clinic pediatric ward) and is healthier than most men his age.