Last week the Lord lead me to study wisdom. I'm really thankful that He gave me several pages worth of wisdom and thought expanding upon it, because I have definitely needed it through this last week. It's so easy for me to get on my mental hamster wheel, I start running, spinning that wheel, trying to figure things out on my own rather than turning to the Lord.
Whenever I feel tempted to turn toward legalism, to a list of rules, the Lord calls out to me to seek His face and allow Him to walk His life through me. He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. No where in there do I see MANDY. It is Christ, and Christ alone. I am to submit myself fully to Him. I am to be a vessel. I don't fill myself- Christ fills me.
Whenever I am hurt or wounded, whenever I am confused or feel misunderstood, Jesus calls me to come to Him. He is always a safe place. I can trust Him. Often I feel like withdrawing into myself, building up walls, and shutting everyone out- including my Lord. I am not to build my own "strong tower"- Christ is to be my strong tower, my refuge. He is my Ultimate Protector.
His Words are always uplifting- even His correction. I can trust in His love. I don't have to wear myself out trying to figure out what to do, what to say, why someone did this, or why this affects me this way, or... whatever. I can just lay it all at His feet knowing that, even if I had all the answers, it wouldn't bring peace. Only Jesus can give me peace.
When I take off with my own thoughts and my own way, I'm walking down a dangerous path. Wisdom calls out, saying "Fix your gaze straight ahead. Carefully consider the path for your feet." Wisdom isn't telling me to figure it all out myself, to consider all the options and choose the best one. Wisdom is telling me to fix my gaze upon Jesus- upon the throne of grace, to receive mercy and take hold of the grace offered to me by the Lord. (Hebrews 4:16)